Well, Wednesday evening it became official. Mike and I ended our two and a half year relationship. At first, I was sad about it (and cried a lot; it's slowly getting better) and couldn't understand how someone who said they loved me (and promised to take care of me and our child for the rest of our lives) and was going through counseling with me to try to work on our relationship could just overnight flip a switch and say nope, I'm done. Taking the ring off my finger was probably the hardest thing I have had to do in quite a long time. I honestly still wish I hadn't.
It's going to be super hard for a while because I know I have to see him almost everyday. I just keep wishing that there was something alone that I could do to fix the situation, but I can't. I was willing to put forth the effort and change the things that I needed to change (cause I know I'm not perfect and having a baby changes so much!) and all I wanted was the same effort from him. I believe all that was needed was some simple tweeking of our schedule, make sure we make time for our friends and family and make sure we make time for each other (remind each other of all of the fun we can have together and share our intimate time together) in between all our time and effort for Mallory (cause of course, she is the most important!). I'm hopeful that we can come to terms with a schedule and time together that meets both our needs and wants.
But for now, I know that Mallory and I will be just fine. She is my rock and my number one priority! And the outpouring of concern and support I have recieved in just this short amount of time is tremendous; I have such amazing friends and family! I know being a single mommy isn't always going to be easy (duh), but I know beyond a doubt that I am one strong woman and can handle anything life decides to throw at me.
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